Maxed Out

Do you ever feel as if you have just reached "that" point? You know, the point where you feel like all the world is on your shoulders and there is nothing else that could possibly be added, and then a whole new pile of CRAP is dumped?

That's me right now.

Without going too much into things I've reached "that" point. I am emotionally, physically, mentally, and financially maxed out. And I don't know how to return from where I've ended.

Why is it that some have life handed to them on a silver platter while others of us get left with the plastic spoons, forks, and knives served on paper plates? I don't get it.

I just need to vent, and felt here would be a good place to let out my fears, sadness, aggression, frustration, etc. Thanks for reading this non-uplifting post. Crying while typing this has helped to ease a little of the stress, but I have a LONG way to go...

Hello out there ~*~*

I know. I am the WORLDS WORST BLOGGER. I must admit...my heart isn't into it right now. My heart isn't into this whole blogging thing. I guess I just feel like my life right now is so...boring? Don't get me wrong, I'd rather boring than something bad going on it in. And instead of boring anyone who might be reading this to tears, I decided to take a blogging vacation.

But I'm back.

However, my life is still boring.

Let's see...the summer is over. I'm back to work. I'm not quite sure where June, July, and August went. But no sense in dwelling on that now. I'm back into the throws of school. I feel like a first year teacher this year. I'm teaching English 9 for the very first time ever, and I feel like a chicken with my head cut off. I was hoping this would be the year that I could work a 7 - 3:30 schedule (required work day is 7:25 to 2:50), however I find myself at work until 5 or 5:30 almost every night. It's honestly getting a little ridiculous. But that's what I get for taking on a new prep.

Other than work, things are good. John and I celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary two weekends ago. Time is flying, but we're happy and healthy, so that is what is important. Our house is great. Can't believe we've been here almost a year already. There is still so much we want to accomplish, but it's baby steps right now. And finally...nothing is happening with the adoption. We just do not have the money right now. We're both feeling okay about not moving forward with a domestic adoption at this time. Is it what we really want? Of course not, but we also don't need to be broke either.

So there it is...my life in a nutshell. If you are still following this slow, boring blog, drop me a line and say hello. :)