A small step

I haven't written lately about our journey to baby. Gosh, it honestly seems like yesterday that we were gearing up for our first visit with Dr. S, back in 2006. And now we're approaching the summer of 2010. Where does the time go?

I dawned on me just a few days ago that we are almost hitting the one year anniversary of our surrogate cycle. Every once in a while I get weepy. Every once in a while I realize what my life would be like if ANY of our cycles had ever worked, but especially our surrogate cycle last year. I will forever remain grateful to my beautiful cousin for giving it a try for us. It is hard to believe that one year ago yesterday I blogged (on the "other" blog) about chomping at the bit as C and I were both taking our birth control, waiting for the green light to start our Lupron to get the cycle going. One year ago. Wow. So much has changed since then, and then again, so much is still the same.

I'm still infertile. That's still the same.

So, with that somber reminder out of the way, I'm happy to say that we've taken a small step forward. On Monday I'll have a phone consultation with a local adoption agency. Unfortunately, like it was with surrogacy, I don't have many people in my life who have blazed the trail before me when it comes to domestic adoption. But thankfully the people I DO have around me are helping me out. I got the name of the agency from a neighbor of my mom's. That same day another friend also recommended the same exact agency. So, I bit the bullet and sent out an e-mail, asking for the information packet. Before I knew it one of the director's had returned my e-mail, and also had one of the agency's social workers contact me. So we set up a phone call for Monday morning.

So let the gamut of feelings begin. I'm so scared and excited and nervous and happy I just don't know what to do. Of course it will feel like an eternity before Monday gets here, but I'm excited to see what the agency representative has to say and hope that the agency seems like a good fit for us.

I do want to thank Wendy, a wonderful friend (and fellow blogger) I've met on one of the infertility chat boards, as she was kind enough to send me a list of questions to ask the social worker when we talk on Monday. After struggling with infertility, Wendy and her husband completed a domestic adoption and are now the proud parents of a BEAUTIFUL six month old baby girl. So thank you Wendy!!!!

I promise I'll update on Monday!